life now …

life now …

clutching, grasping,
holding onto,
gulping down, hungrily,
each breath, every breath,
fearing the onset of the years,
the splinters of time,
embedding,
piercing,
this moment, the very now,
numbed by repetition,
embalmed by trepidation,
of tomorrows yet to dawn,
suspiciously sifting through the strands of greying hair,
seeking clues,
the because to the whys,
the slow mornings,
restless nights,
jabbing reminders,
as years, decades,
scurry, scamper,
flee,
feeling it all slipping away,
standing, immobile,
stilled by the implacable sentinels at the doorstep,
these immovable sentries,
concealing the door,
that leads to today …

unashamed love

unashamed love …

tongue-tied,

you said i was a lush,

intoxicated by you was i,

but instead i lied,

calling you my pineapple crush,

when all along i was afflicted, addicted,

with nowhere left to hide, adrift in the swirling sea of your love, and though,

time flies,

i still feel that rush,

gazing into the ocean of your eyes,

reducing me still,

today,

into an unabashed lush,

so forgive me this scribble,

this ode to you,

and all this unashamed mush …

The rains over Jo’burg

The rains over Jo’burg …

The parched African earth soaks up the liquid offering from the heavens,

birds sing, ululate,

a chorus of catharsis flows through the barren land,

merging into a symphony of renewal.

The rains pour down,

transcending dry tinder of yesterday,

chasing insipid moments away,

drowning in a cacophony of jubilant life.

Life that rumbles,

streaming down desolate alleyways like meandering tears of joy,

drenching this mad, wonderful, insane, bubbling city of gold,

this Jozi, our eGoli, thirsting for nectar from the skies above.

Moments of undistilled mirth,

herald the arrival of spring,

a triumphant rebirth,

jubilant,

ecstatic,

as the Gods of Africa, the spirits of the ancestors,

smile down upon us.

We of flesh and of blood, of muscle and of bone,

thawing our hearts from frozen winter cold as stone,

infusing hope,

as the fragrance of rain on dry soil sketches rainbows,

seeking respite behind heaving clouds of charcoal grey,

the rains banishing winter chills away,

while graciously welcoming spring to stay.

The rains over Jo’Burg cleanse leaves on trees,

rinsing the detritus that listlessly hung,

dry and scorched by the merciless winter sun.

But today,

there are songs to be sung.

Today I am with the heavens,

no longer a mishmash of fragments,

and as our city breathes, purified by bounteous, rejuvenating rain:

I am whole,

once again …

they do not see me at all

they do not see me at all …

1.

They do not see me at all,

as I walk through these desecrated avenues,

of soul-deadening frenzy.

I see them rushing past me,

and no matter how hard I holler and call,

they do not see me at all.

It seems at times, that invisible am I,

for when I reach out, and shriek,

when on my knees I crawl,

they rush past me,

for they do not see me at all.

I have tried to raise their ire,

I have taunted and goaded them,

till exhausted and fatigued,

to the cold damp ground I fall,

still they rush past me,

for they do not see me at all.

I stand mutely,

waving my hands all around while scribbling verses in my unintelligible scrawl,

still they rush past me,

for they do not see me at all.

They rush past me, knocking me over without ever looking back,

trampling over my fallen form,

they look past my limp crumpled shadow,

as they whine on in their monotonous drawl,

and they still do not see me at all.

2.

When they look my way,

flickers of recognition crossing their faces,

I crawl back into my nothingness,

cocooned as the day begins to pall,

hoping, tired and broken,

to be back in the space,

where they cannot see me at all …

no more wasted moments

no more wasted moments …

No more wasted moments,

strewn like salt across the wound.

No more wasted moments,

discarded as empty specks of trust.

No more wasted moments,

in dire need of thorough shredding.

No more wasted moments,

far too many of them to count.

No more wasted moments,

spent on wretched emotions left to dry.

No more wasted moments,

reeking of the stench of rotten feelings.

No more wasted moments,

coarse and vulgar and mutely violent,

no more wasted moments,

spent on the vile disregard of the silent.

No more wasted moments,

grasping each moment with a trust anew,

no more wasted moments,

embracing each moment for it to be true.

love, finally found

“I’ve walked many a mile, alone, desolate, aimless“, I said.

“not anymore“, she said with a smile,

“we have found each other, even though it may have taken a long while“.

100% total mushy schmaltz 😀

art by Pablo Picasso

100% total schmaltzy mushiness 😁 …

She knows she has my heart in her palm, she knows she is my life’s soothing balm.

She knows she lives deep in my heart, she knows we cannot imagine being apart.

She knows her love is my shining light, she knows she blazes within me bright.

She knows all of this and more, 

she knows neither of us have felt a love so pure …

😁😎😊

Nature at Peace

Nature at Peace …

Settling on a branch, the solitary bird sings of its desolate pain,

the leaves of the tree shielding the bird from the jabbing rain,

the delicate branch straining to bear the weight of the bird,

while all across the savanna, on countless branches, the echoes of plaintive birdsong can be heard …

… offering respite to the weary, rest for the weak, relief to those seeking a momentary escape from the scorching day,

the trees, sharing their bounteous shade, sweep the detritus of the day away …

… all of nature, in harmonious rhythm,

as gentle night embraces the savanna,

soothing all in a pristine feeling of ease,

as all of nature finds succour,

in the safe cocoon of nature’s comforting peace …

our pure love

you have become my all.

my everything.

your love raging through my veins,

warming me during these desolate nights of piercing, stinging rains.

you are my all.

my eternal flame,

a constant beacon, drawing me ever closer,

sheathed in the glorious sunshine of your love,

a precious gift, bequeathed unto me by the generous heavens above.

you are my all.

my everything.

you are the radiant brilliance of a flowering rose,

your fragrance filling my being, merging as one with my soul,

as our hearts seek each others,

aching to be closer than just close.

your essence is soaked within my every pore,

i have never felt a love like this before.

so allow me to thank you for loving me so completely,

your blazing furnace scorching me,

as i have bathed in the ocean of your pure love,

a love so rare in this cruel time and empty place,

yet i am made whole,

as my hands caress the soft, gentle, beauty of your exquisite face.

you are my all.

you are my life.

you embrace me, as I do you,

shielding each other from the pain, the cold, the strife.

you have picked me up whenever i have stumbled,

as i continue to vow to do,

always lending you a hand,

as the wrinkles on our faces grow deeper, and as the years pall,

i will be by your side,

each time you slip,

and every time you fall … 

Mushy Rhyme

mushy rhyme …

your love reaches high above, as into the heavens it transcends, lending me a hand to climb out of the abyss where my being often descends,

your love is a warmth that in my void inspires, coaxing me gently in those desolate moments when hopelessness transpires,

your love is a lighthouse that through the mist of life shines bright, a constant in the fog of my blindness, always a beacon of hopeful light,

your love dispels the vacuum of every encroaching night, as it wraps me in your cocoon, a shawl warm and tight,

your love sprinkles flourishes of gentle joy, in the numberless times of skewering pain,

tending to my wounded spirit, a calm balm massaging the hurt out from the cold slicing rain,

your love is a breath that reaches inside me, instilling my world with renewed hope,

as the endless hours of reality jab and sting, guiding me through the seasons in which I fear I cannot cope,

your all-encompassing love holds me so very close, as I stagger under the burdens of excruciating, back-breaking weight,

it is your love that finally relieves me, by unburdening the detritus of cruel fate,

your love permeates all around, as I breathe your gentleness through every pore,

filling me with a once unknown bliss, a special tenderness that I have never felt before,

your love sweeps away the agony of losing my sight, my failing eyes driving me to anger, bordering on the insane,

it is your love that leads me to see that in the desert of blindness, there still falls the healing rain that is a balm to my pain,

your love warms me with your whispers of a truthful ethereal peace,

murmuring words of solace that this ache shall also cease,

your love reaches down into the pit of my gloom, extending your ever-comforting hand,

as you lift me up, from the bowels of despair, so that on my feet I may again  stand,

your love rests deep, in the recesses of my injured soul, 

gathering the shattered pieces, making them once again, whole,

your love sates the furnace, this blazing cauldron of passion in which I burn,

filling my restless nights with dreams I once chose to spurn,

your love is a torch, a shining light that leads me back to our shared pathway,

far from the thorns that on the boulevards of diamonds casually lay,

your love is a precious gift, far too special, a truth I shall always endeavour to cherish,

always and forever,

a treasure that stays within me,

an intrinsic part of my life,

without which I shall no doubt perish …

schmaltzy mushy “it has got to rhyme” rhyme … 😊

schmaltzy mushy “it has got to rhyme” rhyme … 😊

Holding hands, we traversed the chasms of life,

hand in hand, through bleak times and strife,

holding each other in rain and in sunshine,

never letting go of your hand in mine.

We scour the earth for a peaceful place,

where bigotry does not bare its grotesque face,

and after all the years spent seeking,

we have found every nook and cranny where racism lies reeking.

All our desires, all of our dreams,

lie trapped in a gilded cage it seems,

still we search these lands for respite,

beyond the hate, despite the spite. 

How long will we have to walk these pathways,

seeking simple gentleness along life’s alleyways.

We find only intolerance and it’s poisoned dart,

and it seems that tolerance did long ago depart,

but we cannot be ever apart,

as we traverse these bumpy roads in our ricketty cart,

always,

always sharing the simple love of two souls merging as one whole part,

these are the truths we embrace forever more, in the deepest depths of each others heart …

rhyming love and anti-bigotry scribble

Peace Dove art by Picasso

rhyming love and anti-bigotry scribble …

We lie on a bed, stung by many an intolerant thorn,

our love dismissed with bigoted scorn,

rattling the foundations of every societal norm.

We scaled the hateful walls of divisiveness,

we banished the boundaries of race,

of gender,
class,
tribalism,
ageism,

of religion and of creed,

we have walked hand in hand, upright and never cowering,

refusing to feed the beast of sectarianism,

of communalism.

We have refused to feed the weeds of hate,

we have ripped out the roots of fear that keep human beings apart,

we may be only two, our love hardly piercing the putrid flesh of discrimination,

or the smiling facade of accepted segregation.

We know our union is strong,

standing firm, however harsh the storms that batter us,

we have cast off the shackles that bind,

for true love like this, is truly far too rare to find.

Our path ahead may be beset with the bile of holier-than-thou judgment,

with the jabs of barbed words callously spoken,

yet our bond, our tethered connection is firm,

we shall not let hate shatter us, our love shall remain unbroken.

We tighten every strand, to keep our love buffered from the choppy oceans of racist fungal minds, who spew misogyny, blinded by their twisted notions,

while we grow ever closer, sharing the years of our love’s emotions.

So we walk tall, hand in hand, always standing firm,

finding solace in the overwhelming humaneness of the vast majority of our shared human race,

taking heart of the tide that must change,

as bigotry gets swept away,

allowing us all to share a common,

dignified,

free,

prejudice and racist-free world,

as we inch by inch, keep on the fight, to raise the flag of hope,

so we may all bask in its comforting shade,

as it is, at long last,

unfurled …

The Beauty in You

the beauty in you …

My eyes have travelled across oceans, beyond valleys and peaks, across the vast savannah and swirling in murmuring streams,

my eyes have travelled far and wide in many kaleidoscopic dreams,

my eyes have travelled here and there, and through places in between, yet your beauty remains a constant, skipping off the most radiant sunbeams.

I have felt the touch, the wild deluge of the monsoons, drenching me in its cleansing rain,

I have felt the touch, of moonlight cocooning me, a soothing veneer, that has kept me sane,

I have felt the touch, of your body, your lips, your being a healing presence, your unspoken words a melodic refrain.

You come to me in moments alone, when this world seems empty, a chalice brimming with tears,

you come to me in moments dark, your delicate whispers banishing away all my dreadful fears,

you come to me in moments of splintered thoughts, your wondrous self offering shade from the scorching sun that sears.

The beauty in you lends a lifeline to me, dispelling my mute vacuum, raising me from life’s empty hole,

the beauty in you douses the flames of my self-immolating fire, breathing life into me to once more be whole,

the beauty in you is a sublime truth, a truth of love and of belonging, a truth that has firmly taken root, in my once barren soul.

lost echoes of our love

art by banksy

lost echoes of our love …

In the garbage heap of torn dreams,

long doused embers now cold and dead,

lie festering wounds, choked by dread.

Lost echoes,

whip up raw wounds, tearing at the scabs excruciatingly slow,

flayed by dimmed memories of long ago,

twisted, mangled emotions in our garden where flowers no longer grow.

Lost echoes,

creeping along life’s blade,

skewered sunlight condemned to the bleakness of the shade,

leaving a cowering form, torn apart, and afraid.

Lost echoes,

brewed in a chalice of once sprinkled kisses,

simmering on the furnace of burnt out wishes,

separated by deep crevasses, slipping into today’s yawning fissures.

Lost echoes,

now mere incomprehensible trashed thought,

charred, stuttering, a love reduced to absolute nought,

in life’s bazaar, where love is not love, but a commodity to be haggled over and bought.

Lost echoes,

dimming, dragged down bleak alleyways of curdled hate,

blinded by destiny, all hope lost to the tick-tocking clock of fate,

knowing now that it is all much too late.

Lost echoes,

unfeeling, just numb streaming tears,

burdened by the hopeless detritus, of far away splintered fears,

our shells, this life we carry, into the crowd as engulfing flames sears,

while we stumble,

while we fall through the cracks, as agony chuckles and leers,

at the hopelessness of all these days and months of the passing years …

art by banksy

just talking life

just talking life  …

walking through the thicket, nettles stinging our hearts,

ever on the lookout for pathways of promise, yet forever treading the beaten track.

the hands of fickle time, jabbing these bodies, our shells to continue on ahead,

passing myriad alleyways of beckoning promise, a different course to chart alone,

though thorns dig deep, we persist, blindly trudging this dreary old way,

study hard, work harder, get married, have kids, buy a house, pay off the mortgage, babysit the grandchildren, develop illnesses, totter unsteadily on walkers, lay bound to our beds,

the well-travelled alleyways so many stumble through – over and over, and over again,

staying on the narrows, not going against the grain, banishing the murmurs, that whisper in our ears, to take a chance, to veer off the road, to stray down a more twisting thicket,

into an unknown realm, of dangers that may litter this course, of the light of hope that may shine in the dark,

oblivious of dragons that may lie in wait, hugging the shawls of comfort zones, soon to tattered by time and fate, to be left in the open, to brace the elements,

the same howling winds of that other well-trodden way, stung by similar twists and tragedies, tripping and falling, finding love perhaps, another one who has chosen to swim the streams alone,

we may lose our footing, sliding down slippery slopes,

but with a raging fire of hope, burning deep inside, knowing this has been our unique journey, far from the well-worn shoes of that other life,

stepping ever onwards one tiny inch at a time,

beholding beauty not even known,

tasting the sweet nectar of something new,

swimming the seas of uncharted waters,

thrashed by deafening winds,

tossed around by slashing waves,

till in the distance, we spot land,

and as the tides wash us ashore, we drift into fatigued sleep,

awakening to the soft chirping of the birds,

surrounded by swaying palm trees,

the hues of nature so vivid, the feelings in our soul so true,

as we feel talcum sands beneath our feet,

hearing the familiar music of life,

the sounds of the living surrounding us,

as we find this new abode teeming with life,

a world of peace we have at last found,

as we disappear into the sunset of a new day,

with the countless others,

who also chose this other way …

she who is free

she who is free …

I would have called out to her, across the the green fields she walked,

her silhouette fading in the distance.

I would have called out to her,

she who walked her own path now,

free from all the weight that caged her will.

I would have called out to her,

yet I remained still. 

what she said

she said that she had seen them all.

the promise-makers, the vow and oath-takers, the silken tongued smooth talkers, the quiet intense brooders.

she asked me if I could love her. truly love her.

I said that I would spend our lives trying.

‘it’s enough‘, she said.

L O V E

art by banksy

seeing you …

seeing you,

wraps my day in blanketed warmth,

seeing you,

feeds a hunger buried deep,

seeing you,

radiant in my dreams,

so close, so far,

scorches me, that burning furnace, an unquenchable desire,

the endless supernova of your ravenous fire …

art from google

The Shade of the Baobab Tree …

art from google

The Shade of the Baobab …

The wandering soul rests,

under a Baobab tree that offers sanctuary,

as the South African sun,

burns copper red.

The wanderer gives thanks to the ancestors,

a moment of respite from the unending journey,

sifting through the dust,

divining the road ahead,

a time to reflect,

on miles lost through the sieve of time,

on paths that have yet to be tread …

art from google

tribute to my mother

reunion after 27 years

for my mother, Zubeida Moolla 1934 – 2008.

(dedicated to exiles, refugees, and the brave South Africans who struggled against Apartheid tyranny within South Africa)

meeting after 27 years

My mother passed away after a lengthy battle with Motor-Neurone Disease, also called ALS.

This poem is also dedicated to all the brave souls who are courageously battling illnesses and terminal diseases, and to the families and those dearest to them who are taking care of their loved ones.

May we always salute them and their families’ courage in the face of indescribably hard circumstances

I remember the tears she shed,

as she longed for her distant abode,

she wept often then, as she pined for her children, Tasneem & Azad,

and felt the future looked bleak, on that dim, lonely road.

I remember the tears she shed,

when that telegram came one afternoon,

‘regret to inform you stop father passed away stop’,

She wept often after that, for their last goodbye had been said too soon.

I remember the tears she shed,

on that glorious day in a February not that long ago,

when the prisoner finally walked out, breathing the free air,

she wept less after that, for then she knew where they were to go.

I remember the tears she shed,

soaring high above the clouds heading back to her land,

those tears came out in soft sobs, but her eyes were smiling,

defiant and full of new hope, as she held tightly on to his wrinkled hand.

I remember the tears she shed,

some years later, on that peaceful late April morning,

when she stood and proudly bore the ink on her aging thumb,

she wept a lot that April evening, knowing that a new day was dawning.

I also remember that on a Thursday not long ago,

as she was slipping away slowly, she seemed not to weep,

after all the miles and places, and after all the tears that she had cried,

I remember that she wept little then, as she drifted off into an eternal sleep.

(for my mother, Zubeida Moolla 1934 – 2008)

my mother and father

meeting comrade Nelson Mandela Johannesburg 2008

my father and comrade Nelson Mandela Johannesburg 1950s

my father with his comrade and friend Nelson Mandela

https://afzalmoolla.wordpress.com/2018/02/11/my-family-a-journey-through-the-years/

with late comrade Winnie Mandela talking about my mum and their friendship

courtesy of the Nelson Mandela Foundation

our love

art from google

She smiled, looking at the sky,

her hair flowing like a meandering stream,

her face the soft petals of many a dream.

She smiled, looking at me,

“let’s walk this earth a bit, you and I“,

I was quiet,

nodding as we both looked up,

as candyfloss clouds whispered by.

“yes“, I said, “let us walk together“.

We walk hand in hand  still,

sharing a companionship that blossomed long ago,

by sharing the peace, the freedom, the bonds of love,

blanketing us like a shawl, from the heavens above.

passion

art from google

 … missing

      the taste,

               

          lips

     brushing

          lips,

scribbling odes,

       fingertips

        drizzling

        scribbles,

                

on bare skin:

my muse,

                you,

           eternally

               you,

         my muse,

             

         a constant,

       inescapably

            hewn,

             into

        the fabric

       of my soul,

        evergreen,

       entwined as one …

 

          
 

quote from google

Love, Mania, and Verse

Love, Mania, and Verse …

The pendulum swings,

while the mania in my head,

strips me bare and yanks me,

into the cauldron of love.

Once again,

never divining the tea leaves,

knowing, always knowing,

the gnawing knots of unease,

that curl into a fist.

My isolation is a shield,

a suit of armour,

tightly clad around my self,

once worn,

then discarded,

taking its place on my barren shelf.

Love, mania, and verse,

coalesce, beseeching me,

with timeous forewarning,

not to tread into the quicksand,

that slippery bog of promise.

Yet,

in times past,

in moments present,

tis’ that very promise,

that I cling to.

At times I lose myself in the crowd,

revelling in the solitude found there,

at times I claw my way back to the now,

aching for the pain that stings,

the buried voice that sings,

dirges to forgotten emotions,

scribbled verse that flings,

the toys out of my cot,

while I wait,

for the mania to stop,

knowing,

always knowing,

that it shall be,

merely a matter of time,

before the other shoe,

must, as always, 

drop.

the years and our love

the years and our love …

years disappear, wisps of time consume moments,

even as tears streak down in the rain,

yet these true emotions remain,

in tune,

our heartbeats in symphonic harmony,

rises forever more,

a crescendo impossible to contain,

for our love like interwoven melodies,

soars,

eternally sharing a common refrain …

an old favourite: the girl with the beret at the bus stop

photograph from google

the girl with the beret at the bus stop …

I saw her at the bus stop, on a bitterly cold winter morning, her beret tilted to the side.

We exchanged polite smiles and furtive glances, till along came our ride.

We sat across each other and soon we spoke, breaking the ice, with talk of the chills battering our bones, as we shared sandwiches, for each other just a slice.

We spoke of the coldness around us, the frigid souls we encountered, we spoke of life’s pathways and where we hoped we were headed, as we confessed, what we feared most, was the banality of a life we so fiercely dreaded.

Thus began our short morning ritual, a bus ride with a stranger, not knowing anything except our names, our conversations so true they scorched like roaring flames.

We often laughed about the funny stuff we experienced, about the weight we felt we had to carry, the seemingly heavy burdens wracking us, all these chats, drowned out at times, to the soundtrack of the squealing brakes of our bus.

Our talks were blisteringly true, as happens at times with strangers, yet we opened ourselves up to each other, trusting the depths in our eyes, feeling a kinship, that logic defies.

We spoke of earning a wage, paying the bills, discarding the frills, we spent what felt like hours in those short-haul trips, baring our truths honest and deep, feeling for once, the harsh shadows of daily life retreat.

She was to me the girl with the beret, fierce yet gentle, knowing so much and still wanting to know, as was I on those mornings so long ago.

We spoke of lovers lost, of lost loves, of our ache for something tangible, something less gaudy, something more true, a mirage always just out of view.

I showed her my scars, she showed me hers, a lifetime of half-promises built on mounds of dust, we spoke of escape, into each others dreamscapes, even as all around us our world was covered in rust.

There was nothing about us but truth, nothing but a truth distilled, an understanding that someone out there in this cold world understood, far from the slicing of all the threatening grudges, we knew, our sharing was beyond all that, as we often in complete silence sat.

Our conversations churned into the butter of each morning, easing the coming day, and we smiled knowing that one else knew us, no one could ever relate, even as we were innocently oblivious of the often cruel hands of fate.

Her eyes danced with a fire, when sharing her insanity, and she said my eyes raged as well, embracing the craziness of it all, the two of us ever mindful, of the ache that did in each other dwell.

Then came that fateful day when she was there no more, and I felt the icy chills deep in my bare bones, feeling a vacuum I did not know my life could ever fill, a random friendship so tightly bound, that decades would pass till a friendship as profound as that was found.

I often thought of her, at another bus-stop, her beret tilted just slight, waiting for her ride in the morning air, feeling that we somehow remained connected, heart to heart, in a way impossible to articulate, for it was us, just us, with whom we felt we could only ever relate.

I think of her often, my friend on the bus all those years ago, sharing parts of our life, profound and without judgemental fears, through moments of agony, and through the smiles and the tears.

I must confess that to this day, whenever I pass a bus stop, I glance at it even as I know,

I shall not see that girl in the beret,

from so many years and lives ago …

( inspired by “The Boss” Bruce Springsteen’s “Bobby Jean” from the album ‘Born in the USA)

(also inspired by “Raspberry Beret” by Prince)

photograph from google

l o v e

art from google

L   O   V   E  . . .

Your breath reaches me, banishing the gulf between you and I,

across the oceans, so near we could be together in the blink of an eye.

Your fragrance swirls its way to me, across the distance between you and I,

thousands of miles traversed, sharing our own carpetted sky.

Your gentle caresses stroke my emotions, sweeping away the minutes that separate you and I,

our hearts meeting, beating in rhythm, in tune with the solitary nightingale, who for its mate does solemnly cry.

My entire being reaches out to envelope you, in this wondrous cocoon of love, shared by you and I,

breaking the barriers that stone walls can never contain, however daunting, however high.  

art from google

The Light Shines: Mandela Centenary 1918 – 2018

The Light Shines …

A beacon for revolutionary and real change,

a torch dispelling the narrowness of prejudice.

The light shines.

A permanent flame in the quest for universal human dignity,

an eternal sentinel against the comforts of embraced apathy,

The light shines, brightly,

today.

The light shall shine,

in your heart and mine.

The light shall shine,

tomorrow, and for all time …

with President Nelson Mandela, Johannesburg 2008 – from right: my father, President Nelson Mandela, myself

my father with Nelson Mandela – Johannesburg 1950s

https://afzalmoolla.wordpress.com/2018/02/11/my-family-a-journey-through-the-years/

Apartheid South Africa

Apartheid South Africa

Nelson Mandela Centenary

(1918 – 2018)

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

A man of action forged in the crucible of resistance.

Resistance against racial discrimination.

Resistance against injustice.

Resistance against oppression.

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

A man burnished in the furnace of struggle.

Struggle to defeat the crime against humanity that was Apartheid.

Struggle against the obscene notions of racial superiority.

Struggle against the scourge of hate.

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

A human being who personified kindness.

A human being who embodied humility.

A human being who exemplified the unity of our human race.

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

A man of peace, and a man who fought the just fight.

A man of forgiveness, and a man who battled the Apartheid regime for the need of taking responsibility for the heinous crimes of the past.

A man of truth, and a man of humane love.

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

He was of flesh and of blood, and he shed his blood as he endured the lashes of the whip on his flesh.

He was of flesh and of blood, and he fought ferociously against the suppression of his fellow human beings.

He was of flesh and of blood, and he emerged with dignity from the hell of twenty-seven years of imprisonment on an island of tyranny.

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

He was a man of a steely will in the long cause to rid all oppressed people from the yoke of colonialism, he picked up arms and fought the honourable fight.

He was a man of fiery resolve against the scourge of divisiveness, he was at the forefront in the battles against human subjugation and indignity.

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

Madiba was a revolutionary, in the trenches against the obscenity of poverty and deprivation.

Madiba was a soldier, on the ground in the service of the most vulnerable, the children of this world.

Madiba was unshakeable, and he lived the example of the committed revolutionary and the dignified statesman.

Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela walked amongst us not long ago.

Our beloved Madiba does not walk amongst us anymore.

And yet, Nelson Rolihlahla ‘Madiba’ Mandela lives within us.

Madiba lives in the streams that flow into the rivers that flow into the oceans.

Madiba lives in the winds that blow across the vast lands of Africa and beyond.

Madiba lives in the thud-thudding of heartbeats around our world.

Madiba lives in the veins where the blood flows through our common human form.

Madiba lives!

Madiba will always live!

The African Rains …

Soaking,

the rains settle,

meandering over jagged faultlines of our memory.

Drenching,

the rains settle,

streaming through veins,

the thud-thudding of the heartbeat of Africa.

Absorbing,

the rains that settle,

within each of us,

herald rebirth.

And,

if you listen,

if you strain to hear,

while shedding the raucous noise of your inner turmoil.

If you listen,

the whispers of the ancestors,

speak to us all,

lending us warmth,

urging us to stand,

even though we may stumble,

even though we may fall.

your love …

art from google

you swirled into my life like the scent of the parched earth after a few drops of rain …

you filled my heart with the nectar of your love and you drowned away all my pain …

you swirl and fill me each day with the caressing melodies of your love’s refrain …

you have made me yours with my heart in the palm of your hand …

to feel truly loved ..

again and again … and again

 

art from google

84 … for our father

http://www.thepresidency.gov.za/national-orders/recipient/moosa-mosie-moolla

84 …

(for our father and grandfather and comrade Mosie Moolla who turned 84 years old this June 12)

Mosie Moolla with Nelson Mandela in the 1950s

84 …

The number says so much, the years of sacrifice and struggle that can never truly be left behind,

the stark years of revolution when you and the countless footsoldiers shared the tightest bonds of comradeship,

the dedication to the cause of freedom against the savage cruelty that was the crime against humanity – Apartheid,

the 27 years in exile, separated from your two children, your family, your home,

holding the hand of our mother who stood by your side, torn apart from her children, her family, her home.

84 …

the number says so much, more than half a century ago, forging relationships in the cauldron of resistance,

your brothers and your comrades –

Nelson Mandela,

Oliver Tambo,

Walter Sisulu,

Moses Kotane,

JB Marks,

Joe Slovo,

Nana Sita,

Bram Fischer,

Ahmed Kathrada,

Alfred Nzo,

Yusuf Dadoo,

and so many more,

in whose hearts and spirit the fires of the just fight roared on, never to be dimmed.

84 …

the number says so much, of our mother and of your shared sacrifice, of not knowing the joys of seeing your daughter Tasneem and your son Azad grow, the pain of being ripped away from your families, your homes, your motherland,

to travel to distant countries to keep the fight alive on the outside, building solidarity in the world to isolate Apartheid South Africa,

to fan the embers into the flames of international pressure against Apartheid South Africa.

84 …

the number says so much, returning home when your comrades Nelson Mandela and so many other giants were released from Apartheids’ prisons,

to work in mobilising the tasks for the  groundwork to build a new, free, non-racial, non-sexist democracy for people of all colours, regardless of religion or tribe,

to finally see your comrade Nelson Mandela become the first President of a free South Africa.

84 …

the number says so much, as you still keep the lessons of history alive, as you shake us all to remember and never to forget the comrades who were executed, tortured and killed, who fell on the battlefield, the comrades who did not see the birth of their dream of a free South Africa.

84 …

the number says so much, yet the furnace rages on,

inspiring us and many more,

the furnace will rage on,

in our hearts,

deep in our shared core.

(for our father and grandfather Mosie Moolla who turned 84 years old on this 12th of June)

receiving The Order of Luthuli in Silver from former South African President Jacob Zuma

Johannesburg 2000s

with old comrades 2000s

with comrades 2000s

The Cost of Revolution

The Cost of Revolution …

(in memory of the June 16th 1976 student uprising in South Africa)

You hurled rocks, stones,

Molotov Cocktails,

Sling-shots against the brutality of racial oppression.

You fell on the streets of Soweto,

Thokoza,

Kagiso,

Sharpeville,

Tembisa,

and countless more across this nation. 

Tasting the acrid stench of tear-gas,

Feeling the flesh ripped off your bones by their dogs,

Drenched by water-cannons,

Stung by rubber-bullets,

Whipped by sjamboks,

Shot in the head by lead,

Paid for by your country’s gold.

You stood trial for Treason,

Facing the hangman’s noose,

You stood firm, you did not break,

Even though,

You had wives, sons, daughters, lovers, brothers, sisters, and friends to lose.

The revolutionary dream burned bright,

In all your hearts,

Even as the jackboot of Apartheid,

Fractured your bones and tore your families into broken and splintered parts.

You left your brothers,

Sisters,

Sons,

Daughters,

Lovers,

Wives,

Comrades and friends,

Seeking out foreign lands,

With only the ammunition that you held in your hearts, your minds and in your never-wavering hands.

The enemy did not waver either,

Tyranny didn’t cease.

2 AM knocks on doors around this land,

Meant to stifle, to intimidate,

Yet,

You took a stand.

Hungry,

lost far away from home, pining for freedom and your loved ones,

Still,

You stood firm,

You fought on,

“Release Mandela and all Political Prisoners” was your cry,

In capitals in far-off lands,

You feared not the bayonet in the enemy’s hands,

The revolution was burning bright,

Even as the dawn of Freedom was in sight.

Finally on a February day,

They released him and the joy was palpable, nothing stood now in the revolution’s way.

All the while,

The enemy consolidated its power,

Paying off traitors,

Seeding violence,

Orchestrating mayhem to taint the noble cause,

And still you took the tyrant’s rifles and clenched their muzzles in-between your brave jaws.

Never standing down,

Backing away,

Retreating to safe space,

The fire of revolution burned,

Spreading through the plateaus and valleys and townships and cities and villages in this pained land,

And still,

Still,

You held that Kalashnikov in your hand.

And when that day of freedom came,

You felt the stirrings of joy and pain and yes,

Of shame.

You felt the shame of leaving those you left behind,

You tasted again the pain,

Of economic hardships,

Of capitalism and its illusory promise,

Of a revolution left incomplete,

Till,

Every man, woman and child has enough to eat.

A revolution still incomplete,

Where hunger stalks the night,

Where mercy,

And comradely solidarity,

Left last night on a first-class flight.

You stand tall still,

Working as you always have,

Polishing the metal chariots of those you once bled for,

Still feeling the injustice,

Of not having the two cents more,

That deprives you of your daily bread,

And you try hard to remember,

Whether this is the revolution,

For which so many died,

The countless whose names remain unsaid,

The brothers and sister,

mothers and fathers,

Lovers and friends,

the martyred dead.

(dedicated to all South Africans who sacrificed their lives, their families, in pursuit of the revolutionary dream. A dream that remains a dream to many, and a dream that will continue to be dreamed)

all photographs from google

All that Jazz

art from google

?

is it perchance

that moment

tattoed in my mind ?

our shared dance ?

a lifetime ago ?

in jazzy-smoked ol’ johannesburg town 

?

was it perchance

your smile

as gentle as the whispers of my perennial dream …

… your eyes

an ocean into whose smokey waters i yearn to drown

away from this

away from it all

far

far

away from this life

this daily

work-sleep-cage

of vacuumed lies

this

cavernous

prison

of leaden skies

breaking the shackles

casting off the burden

of carrying it all

of shouldering this world

your world

while

feeling at times

like your back is

closing in

against a blank wall.

2.

ah but enough of that talk

that talk of yesteryear

for now

i dream

i dream waking dreams

of that night

in whiskey-glazed

ol’ johannesburg town

of holding on

to that shared dance

is it that moment

that crystallised moment

is it

perchance

?

art from google

apologies to her

art from google

apologies to her who knows …

I walk through this neverending thicket,

thorns jabbing at my side, 

left out in the cold, a shimmering blade,

slicing emotions apart,

as she prepares once more, to depart.

I find her settled in a corner of my manic mind,

shedding yesteryears moulting skin,

beating through the foggy thicket,

my feelings flailing, gnawing, stretching my mania thin.

She leaves, burying herself deep,

in the convoluted recesses of my remaining senses,

having stormed the ramparts,

overrunning my paper thin  defences.

Do tell her that I miss her,

and all the moments we shared,

do please also tell her that I am sorry.

I was cold.

I should have cared.

art from google

love | peace | respect

my recurring dream

my dream,

recurs,

delicious,

boundless, seamless,

one in which i am

allowed to savour,

lingering sensations,

quickening of the pulse,

the infinite pleasure,

of a few murmurs together,

profound,

intimate,

true,

for just as eternities may be lived in an instant,

i too may live a few lifetimes,

in a moment spent with you …

D-Day: France, June 6th, 1944

( dedicated to the countless souls who made the ultimate sacrifice in the war against Nazism and Fascism )

photograph from google

photograph from google

D-Day: France, June 6th, 1944.

1.

They were thrashed by the merciless sea.

They were drenched by the savage waters, their uniforms clinging to their shivering bodies.

They were mowed down as they approached the beaches of death.

The beaches of unspeakable horrors.

Gold.

Omaha.

Juno.

Sword.

Utah.

They were brothers and fathers and sons and friends and cousins and nephews and grandchildren and boys and men.

2.

They surged on, facing the metallic death of Nazism and Fascism,

they surged on and were cut into pieces of bloodied flesh and shattered bone,

yet they surged on.

They surged on so that we may live.

They surged on so that we may breathe the air of peace.

They surged on and on,

and on.

3.

Today their bones lie buried, along rows of crosses.

Today they lie beneath this earth.

4.

Today they live.

Tomorrow they shall live.

They who sacrificed their lives for humanity.

They shall live on eternally,

within us all!

photograph from google

( dedicated to the countless souls who made the ultimate sacrifice in the war against Nazism and Fascism )

photograph from google

seeking solace

art from google

seeking solace …

Bracing howling winds of fate, of love, 

enveloped by darkening clouded skies above,

what becomes of the heart that feels too much,

but desolate emptiness.

Merely traversing the daily grind,

fragile are the bonds, the ties that bind,

still hopeful, still searching,

for the solace that seems so hard to find.

bipolar blues

art from google

bipolar blues …

twisting minefields,

tearing neurons,

imploding with ferocious intent,

till synapses freeze,

numbly content.

I am rendered wasted, unfazed,

while the mind falters,
stagnating in puddles of highs and lows,

dumbed down, the mind ceases to gallop,

pulling the reins as every real thought –

S  L  O  W  S

– idle,
inured, pharmaceutically hazed,

all emotion stunted, razed,

floating,

aimlessly dazed …

art from google

Two Short Scribbles

art by banksy

Two Short Scribbles …

1.

nothing reaches,

the inner reaches,

of a heart,

that reaches too far.

2.

Alone, I rest.

In solitude, I breathe.

Alone at rest.

At last.

art from google

The Tears of Olives

for Palestine:

The Tears of Olives.

Trickling down shrapnelled flesh,

tears fall,

like

blood

on

bloodied

cheek.

In the sun,

lifeless bodies

lie cold as stone,

the tears of olives 

flow,

salty sentinels

of memory:

pain,

suffering,

occupation,

hunger,

the tears of olives

perennially streak,

etching pathways of dust,

between alleyways of desolation,

hopelessly bleak.

The slaughter continues,

as more dead bodies,

rot,

reek.

Love trumps Fascism

Love trumps Fascism …

we have scaled the barbed walls of stigma,

we have weathered the storms of prejudice,

we have traversed the thorny path of racism.

We have walked, baked by the sun, frostbitten by the ice, thrashed by the waves,

we have found at last, the gentlest places in the mind,

the most inclusive land, where we now stand,

our own place of sanctuary that knows no prejudice,

no stigma,

no racism …

… and if you feel like joining us,

here,

take this outstretched hand …

The Artists Lament

The Artists Lament …

Broad dazzling brushstrokes,

as hunger chokes,

penning odes to hope,

in dreadful penury, hurtling down the jagged slope.

Sketches and  drumbeats alive with passion,

lost in the cavernous stink of the latest fashion,

souls bared, creating music, poetry, and art,

lie discarded amongst the trash, doomed to be flung aside from the very start.

Dead artists long gone, their lives a living hell,

now fetching obscene millions, to the repugnant smashing sounds, of countless gavels that fell,

dead artists long gone, their lives broken and torn,

their works oohed and aahed at today, on the deadened walls they adorn.

Living music, poetry alive, the heartbeat of arts, today heaped on rubbish carts,

while the musician, the poet, the artist,

achingly watch their lifeblood as it slips away silently,

and into the drain quietly departs,

Ah! but to be up for sale in a century or two,

though as for now, who cares if the art is vibrant, vivid, and true?

Definitely not me.

Perhaps not you …

Liverpool – 1 Real Madrid – 3 Champions League Final – Congratulations to Real Madrid for their 3rd consecutive win

Congratulations Real Madrid for their 3rd consecutive Champions League win.

Football = Respect

a football and some feet …

I remember those days like yesterday,

.of bare feet kicking an ancient ball around,

learning to dribble, swerve and to like the greats’ sway.

Then came some tattered sports shoes,

as we nursed our aching ankles,

our excruciating shins, ignoring our mothers’ calls for us to get back right then and there,

as we trudged on, proudly showing off the bruises,

returning home, always ready with a million and one excuses.

Then, in what seemed like an instant, we were old enough to follow the worlds’ most beautiful game …

… Paolo Rossi scoring three goals, and breaking my 10 year old heart as Italy sent Brazil home in Espana 1982 …

Diego Armando Maradona slicing through England after his “hand of God” insanity, to score his second goal of the match, the most exquisite goal in history in Mexico 1986 …

Roger Milla taking Cameroon and Africa and all of us into the heavens in Italia 1990, the old man a “super-sub” …

Roberto Baggio missing a penalty for Italy in the final at USA 1994, collapsing on his knees as Brazil took the trophy home …

Zinedine Zidane heading two goals to lift all of France in 1998, to the echoing chorus of “zizou-zizou” …

Ghana so heartbreakingly close in 2010 South Africa, being thwarted by some of the worst unsporting behaviour by Uruguay on the field of play …

Andres Iniesta scoring in the Final of 2010 for Spain against the Netherlands in my own Johannesburg’s Soccer City, lifting the World Cup high in our African night.

Today, much older we are as decades have past,
.our ankles and our shins in pain,

thanks to encroaching age,

still the memories flood back,

through all the intervening years,

the ache of having shed our fair share of tears.

Yes, it will always be our beautiful game,

the peoples game,

in the African sunshine,

under the South American skies,

beyond all borders, in icy winter sleet,

in the pouring buckets of rain.

It is the beautiful game,

and may it always,

and forever so remain …

the fragrance of your love

the fragrance of your love …

Wafting, caressing wisps,

reach me.

A barely discernible lilting fragrance, 

touches me.

You are my bouquet of flowers,

you are my garden of nature’s bounty,

you beckon me closer, ever closer,

your sultry love, crossing the miles,

in my rear view mirror, a series of snapshots, of the times we shared,

of the years fleeing past, as we, with each other,

walked hand in hand, on our beach of promise,

our souls to each other, bared.

Now I lay here desolate, alone, if I only knew why I was banished, I would do it all again,

to atone,

yet your fragrance infuses me, with a hope of reckless, passionate daring,

for it was you,

it was always you,

on the silver moons of long ago,

who taught me the true meaning of love,

and of caring.

Your fragrance has settled within me, deep and flowing through veins,

though you may no longer be here by my side,

our shared moonbeams filter through my cracked windows,

and as always,

there is no place for me to hide.

For a mother

For a mother …

She left me,

with only the thoughts of her embrace to warm me,

in frigid mornings of tomorrows yet to come.

She left me,

with her words of tender truths to shroud me,

in the coming evenings of stabbing sleet and hail.

She left me,

yet she stays forever within me,

in my waking dreams

and in my restful thoughts,

she stays forever within me,

she remains an abiding part,

of the love,

the pain,

the tears,

thus we shall never, ever be truly apart.

my fellow wordpressers

greetings all …

this is a bit of an excuse and a bit of shameless self-promotion.

I have been and will be sharing some old scribbles from time to time.

needless to say that is the laziest thing a scribbler can do so my reasons may not be too sound but nonetheless …

when reading a lot of my older scribbles, i’ve been tempted to tinker with them and so a lot of older scribbles that i re-post are either tinkered with or just sharing once again for all my new friends on this wonderful wordpress …

that said, it is still the laziest thing to do 😁

warmest wishes to all and peace and respect and equality and dignity and unity as the human race and an end to misogyny and justice for all …

🌷✊👍✌️🌻

☮️

( perhaps also a cynical way to garner more “likes” 😁 )

live life now

live life now …

Clutching,

grasping, holding on,

just barely.

Gulping hungrily,

each breath,

fearing the onset of the years,

the splinters of time, 

embedding, 

piercing our days and nights with trepidation,

encroaching upon this moment,

the very now,

this life we lead,

as we walk, in a daze, numbed by repetition,

embalmed by the cocoon that lets nothing in,

the gnawing fear of tomorrows yet to dawn,

as we sift through strands of greying hair,

seeking clues,

the because to the whys,

the slow mornings,

and the restless nights,

all just jabbing, prodding reminders,

as the years, and the decades,

scurry,

scamper,

and flee,

while we feel it all slipping away,

standing,

immobile,

stilled by the implacable sentinels at the doorstep,

these immovable sentries,

of time itself,

that conceal the door,

that leads to a better today …

talkin’ whatever-comes-to-mind bluesy blues

talkin’ whatever-comes-to-mind bluesy blues

wearing different skins, having being kicked down at the shins,

i walk on, fearless.

when this cruel world stabs me, slicing me with the pain of the thousands cuts,

i walk on, fearless.

hearing all the barbed words, smashing against my core,

i walk on, fearless.

when they tell me that i am a loser, devoid of the trappings of luxury,

i walk on, fearless.

when fate deals me rotten cards, and i feel like i am walking on jagged glass shards,

i walk on, fearless.

if you kick me down into the dirt, i will stand again, despite the hurt,

i walk on, fearless.

even when all seems desolate, and everything feels lost, i will weather the winters, dusting off the frost,

i walk on, fearless.

when this glittering world of plastic smiles savage me, i shall smile knowing i am free,

i walk on, fearless.

whether i am man or woman, i will no longer bear the brunt of your twisted words, and your cowardly fists,

i walk on, fearless.

when you strike me across my face, because the food is cold, i shall no longer be bludgeoned by your impotent macho fist, i shall resist,

i walk on, fearless.

when we stand up and take individual stands, we shall outnumber you, and we shall make our demands,

we shall walk on, fearless.

when we rise up together as one, we shall not rest till our daily battles are won,

we shall walk on, fearless.

when you realise you have no hold over us today, we shall combat your misogyny, we shall have our say,

we shall walk on, fearless.

while your guns and and bombs rain down upon us, our children will defy you, and we shall hold onto what we know to be true,

we shall walk on, fearless.

when the slavery of millennia we shall no longer take, you shall fall to your knees, in your shoes you shall quake,

we shall walk on, fearless. 

when your anachronistic norms of culture, of religion, of tradition we shall fight, we shall do so knowing the battles to be right,

we shall walk on, fearless.

when we no longer scrounge for scraps of your leftover feasts, we shall move forward, for this struggle never retreats,

we shall walk on, fearless.

when we shall no longer sweat it out in your factories of labels and brands, we shall rebuild our lives with our hardened bare hands,

we shall walk on, fearless. 

when your wage-slavery and your greed we shall topple till your very foundations shake, we shall hold the line, for our resolve you will never break,

we shall walk on, fearless.

we shall no longer let our daughters and sons be sent to fight your wars, we shall not spill our bloody to stock your designer stores,

we shall walk on, fearless. 

we shall no longer be trampled because of caste, tribe, religion, or sexual orientation, we shall strive in all our lands, to bring to birth a kinder nation,

we shall walk on, fearless. 

we shall pull off the blinkers so many wear, we shall counter their aggression, if they should dare,

we shall walk on, fearless. 

we shall wrest the control from your greedy paws, we shall attempt to heal the planet, rewriting your stale anti-pollution laws,

we shall walk on, fearless. 

we shall arrive at those crossroads quite soon, so sup as much as you can from your silver and gold spoon,

we shall walk on, fearless.

this is our collective threat and challenge to all of you, whose greed knows no end, we stand upright, we shall not bend,

we shall walk on, fearless.

so be under notice that we are rising, and in rising we shall slay,

the endless wars, the corporate greed, the religious oppression, the imperial plan, the shackles of culture and tradition, the scourge of abuse and misogyny,

so be warned, for yes we are rising to all these demons say,

to shape a new world, a less cruel, and more equitable and just and peaceful day …

the odour of excess

https://www.newyorker.com/culture/annals-of-gastronomy/twenty-four-karat-chicken-wings-and-the-allure-of-eating-gold?mbid=social_facebook

The Odour of Excess

Sitting together,
smiling benignly,

sipping coffee,
flaked with 24-carat gold-leaf shavings,

their empty souls,
always on the prowl,

to sate,
the latest cravings.

“sell all your jewellery, and give to the poor”,
revolutionary words, uttered by His son,
Jesus of Nazareth (Peace be upon Him).

Well, we all know what became of him,
when we see God’s Sacrificial Lamb,
stuck up on cross to bleed out and to die.

And today, two-thousand years on,
we are drenched in the rivers,
of the crocodile tears,
that His people on Cable-TV do cry.

It reeks of ostentation,
and of smug conceit,

for their hollow piety stinks,
as they suckle on,

and bite down hard,
on capitalism and greed’s raw teat.

“pay your workers before the sweat on their brow dries”,

so said the Prophet of Islam,

Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) in Arabia,

more than fouteen-hundred years ago,

as they dishonour him,
each and every day,

as they sip,

on their designer coffee,
flaked with 24-carat gold-leafed shavings,

masking their crassness,
by screeching their prayers,

five times a day,
and ever so loud.

They stink of money,
and their odour reeks,

wafting across all lands,
lingering on for weeks.

Now some will say,
that I envy them,
and thus I am sore,

but honestly now,
let’s ask a question,

was this what God the Merciful had in mind,

when He sent His Son,
and all His Prophets,

down upon this earth for?

love and silence

love and silence …

you and i,

shielded by silence.

barred from ourselves at times.

exiled hearts,

building ramparts.

a wall that may fall.

so, my friend,

lay your head on my chest,

letting my fingers run through your hair,

lulling you gently to rest, as we share our silences,

for life is far too short anyway,

to squander even a day.