the duality of time …
time
erodes.
loves, lives, hearts.
souls, spirits, selves …
time
mends,
wounds
a salve,
a balm.
knowing only that
in the end,
there shall be,
only
stillness,
silence,
peace,
calm.
the duality of time …
time
erodes.
loves, lives, hearts.
souls, spirits, selves …
time
mends,
wounds
a salve,
a balm.
knowing only that
in the end,
there shall be,
only
stillness,
silence,
peace,
calm.
Scribbled Verse 
What happens if the end doesn’t bring the stillness the calm the peace… I don’t think I would find peace in this realm or the other…
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that is a real fear that I too feel … the ever gnawing ‘what if’ … alas, never a way to find that out until we find it out. warmest wishes and regards and thank you for your thought provoking sentiments shared.
Peace and Equality for all
👍✊✌🌻😊
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Afzal, how do we find out when only one form of energy breaks through the barrier of realm?? How do we know when time begins and when it ends, when in probably it never existed to begin with…
Where is the peace then, the calm then??
Sorry today I am in a restless questioning mode, questioning what is not yet is there… I think only you will understand what I am trying to say here
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I am certainly trying to understand what you are trying to say. Yes the apparent randomness of life, the never knowing what even the next few minutes may bring is a scary thought. We are so often caught up with our lives to make a living and do the things humans do, that these questions about what lies beyond is just so vague as it really cannot be understood at all – well not in the world we live in at the moment. Quantum physicists and other philosophers have posited so many differing possibilities not just about who or what we are but about the ‘reality’ we experience. It is the toughest question of all – does this realm lead to another or are we just fleeting pin pricks on something deeper and so much more complicated that we may never truly even begin to form the right questions, let alone know the answers we seek. Your words are deeply profound and challenging and for me at least, I only have the 3 words “I don’t know” even as a speculation. But it is a fascinating topic to discuss further. thank you, Shalini for your profundity and your deep observations that too often lie untouched just beneath the veneer or our ‘daily lives’ … we could converse for hours and days and months and years on these enigmas
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As I told you Afzal, only you can understand the words beneath the words.. That’s why I talk like this… With no other, can I say the words which have so deeper a meaning…
Time may not exist and probably doesn’t I have been having this feeling since a couple of days.. I have dreamt it but I can’t describe the dream if you ask me now.. So your words brought that restlessness to the forefront.
I know I am not supposed to leave this realm now but this realm also doesn’t seem to belong to me so again time has so little value when the realm has no sense of belonging…
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that is, I think, almost the same feeling i feel deeply at times. of not “belonging” to this realm, whatever it is or possibly is not. We as individual human beings are so infinitesimally tiny in the large scheme of things (whatever that means too) … I suppose the fact that we do feel disconnected at times, and I admit I feel deeply and completely disconnected from this ‘realm’ at times, is that age-old question of who we are and why are we here, also wherever ‘here’ may be. that search for understanding and to divine a ‘purpose’ is what renders me almost paralysed at time. the questions seem so simple, yet the deep questions tjat those very questions ask are so incredibly hard to even begin to fathom. I feel disjointed and disconnected from all around me at times, and that is never an easy thing to admit – especially when those around would feel so bad if we ever admitted that. It would seem to them that It is some form negating their being around us and that is sometimes why I wrestle with these very questions of yours in the nutty brain I have.
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I agree to whatever you say… I feel the same, not connected to anything, I don’t question my being here but I don’t get the sense of belonging… So I don’t think crossing over will bring peace and calm.. Sometimes too much caring brings this feeling of not belonging
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I agree with you 100%, Shalini … sometimes caring a lot, being empathetic to our fellow travellers makes it just that much harder for us. It almost feels to me at least that I am being punished at times for ‘caring’ too much. And I don’t mean to sound arrogant when I say that. It’s not like I’m doing anything special but there’s always this feeling that sometimes being more selfish allows one to not be wracked by these questions we ask. Okay not that I’m saying that I am not selfish either. oh you understand, Shalini 😊
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I understand perfectly.. I feel the same Afzal… I rarely write words from the heart as that means I feel and that feelings bring both a sense of connection and disconnection as I want to hate the connection..
Sometimes too much caring brings this feeling of wanting to just be disconnected I don’t think we are being selfish or unselfish but Afzal, how long can we feel too much…
I also don’t claim to do much for anyone… But sometimes the intense feelings makes me feel more disconnected than connected…
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“how long can we feel too much” – that right there is a question that transcends so many levels of physical caring, emotional caring and support for others, psychological caring for the many “out there in the cold” and I dare say, existential caring if that is at all possible. and I relate with you totally when you say the sometimes the “caring” makes me also feel more disconnected and emotionally and physically and psychologically drained of energy. i then find myself slipping into a dark hole and that is when i feel most disconnected from ‘it all’ … and even from those around me who love and care for me. and that makes me feel guilty and oh man, we can chat on forever more about those other aspects, Shalini.
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I agree.. The best part of this chat is for the first time I can see the real you… Thank you for that…
To come to our points, sometimes Afzal we just have to say it and then leave it at that… Accept it that we can’t pretend, accept that somedays it is the caring which brings us down, accept that we may never belong to any realm and till we find the realm where we are at peace we would keep searching.. It takes all kinds of energy to make the vast universe… Maybe this is just a phase or part of journey till we go further on to other realms and maybe one such realm gives us the complete sense of existence, complete sense of expression and complete sense of being…
Some days I don’t know where my words come from but I am glad you are there to listen and understand..
Solution are not in our hands sometimes just knowing of each other is more than enough
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you have articulated what and how I feel at different times so absolutely precisely that I am truly and deeply moved and touched. It is not often at all that someone else ‘feels’ the same way as you do. It makes this ‘realm’ a less lonelier place … thank YOU, Shalini for your taking the time and for us having this ‘true’ conversation without any pretences. And yes, as you say, we may just have to appreciate and come to terms with the fact that we may never truly ‘belong’ anywhere or with anyone or with any group or religion or as you say even feel not belonging in this ‘realm’ … thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts with me. I am deeply grateful as it is never an easy thing to bare our souls and hearts.
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Oh Afzal, you make it easy for me to be me. Maybe just knowing we exist is enough.
I am glad we have such conversations at different points of time… I don’t believe in coincidences.. We are here because we are supposed to be, maybe this needed to be said..
I understand where you coming from as I come from the same place.. Sometimes we have to exist in this void to really exist in sanity…
You have said it correctly People who are selfish, I am envious of them as they live carefree and when we care, we care too much…
I am glad we met on your blog today and we are moving on knowing that we will come back when we need to connect… Some things have to happen at the correct time.
Talking to you here makes me feel a little better, a little uncaring as it feels like I have shed a skin which is not wanted now… So I thank you for helping me shed the load on my mind and heart…
As you have said we can’t enter the different realms yet as we are today, maybe in our understanding we have entered a different realm of the mind.. That may be different kind of evolution a different kind of acceptance and maybe just maybe a little easy to breathe freely
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‘a little easy to breathe freely’ – you have encompassed it all with those words – and THANK YOU for sharing these thoughts of yours with me. It is also comforting to know that we may share such thoughts and that in the sharing there may even be a bit of healing. I too feel the need from time to time to shed the ‘skin’ I am in, metaphorically speaking of course 😊. this has been a very warm and gentle conversation with the free sharing of thoughts and ideas and feelings and sentiments we feel about this ‘realm’ amongst other things. I am very fortunate that you chose to share a conversation with me and yes, the paths we weave are never so precisely defined so who knows we may share more such interactions. have a gentle and peaceful and restful time and my warmest of wishes to you. stay well, Shalini.
Peace and Equality for all 👍✊✌🌻😊
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Thank you Afzal for everything… Your posts sometimes bring forth a lot of mysteries to the forefront. You make me feel more than normal, more deeper more honest
Good night my friend till we meet again..
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Thank you, Shalini. Truly. Your words and sentiments are felt deeply. Till we meet again, warmest wishes
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gosh i fear that either I’m sounding just too pompous or just plain nuts 😊
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Neither, Afzal… Sometimes realms are just that
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yes, Shalini – sometimes realms are just that.
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and back to your question of how do we know which form of energy breaks through which realm – THAT is one impossible question for me to even try to answer. we as humans are just starting our journey beginning to understand the intellectual and emotional and psychological factors that ‘make’ us humans, if we can even manage those questions is beyond me.
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I suppose in the mean time we just carry on, one step at a time. moving ever forward … that seems to be our ‘reality’ at the moment. how we wish we could take a peek and ‘see’ or ‘feel’ what lies or does not lie ‘behind the curtain’, so to speak
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Sometimes I feel maybe we should just exist as energy, it is existing as humans which us difficult as that comes with its own set of feelings and entanglement… But when we want to break free, then that feeling of disconnection comes about. It has nothing to do with people around us but our need to be that energy… Does this make sense??
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it makes some sense to me but by golly, these are some deep and seriously profound questions and feelings you articulate so well. I just don’t know or have a clue but that doesn’t mean I shall not be haunted by the same questions and thoughts.
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Sometimes just maybe, they are just meant to be articulated and left at that as we are articulating to each other… Maybe it just needs to be said so that it is out in the universe and to each other
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you have described this so perfectly, Shalini … and I am in full agreement with you. yes, sometimes we feel the need to articulate these thoughts, without really expecting an answer – but like you said just so that what we feel deeply what needs to be said is then ‘out there’ and i even think that may be true catharsis … just to ask the questions and leave them floating on the breeze. I definitely agree with you, Shalini.
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and never apologise for asking the questions. how bland it would be if we as humans just accepted the ‘acceptable’ answers or never deem to ask these questions that cut to the very core of what makes us human and the ‘reality’ of the world around us.
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Yea, that’s very intelligent poem, about time. 👍👍👍👍👍
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many thanks, friend. much appreciated and humbled by your warm sentiments.
Peace and Equality for All
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